What are you thirsting for?
As you know from the last month I sent you my prayer request
about my health “Lupus”. I appreciate and thank you so much for your prayers. I
would like to share what I have learned from the Lord through this situation
with all of you.
First of all I learned about “Faith.” When I knew what was
going to happen to me, I needed to get medicine injections for least 6 months
to cure my kidney. I felt anxiety and as I thought further about this process,
many questions came to my mind. What can I do or can’t I do? What is my
personal ministry going to be? Etc. But I forgot to be still and know you are
God. How is my faith in you? I have
helped my disciples to look up and fix their eyes on Jesus not the situation
when they had hard time. And keep asking questions like: Do you believe God
will take care of your life? Do you believe God will provide? Do you believe
God is our shepherd? Do you believe our lives are in God’s hands? All theses of
questions were turning back to me and made me realize and ask myself “Do I
believe?” So this is such a sweet thing that God raised my faith in Him. And
God gave me his peace, strength and readiness to face it.
Let me hear in the morning of your
steadfast love, for in you I trust.
Make me know the way I should go, for
to you I lift up my soul.
The 2nd sweet thing, I have meditated on
Psalm 143 and I have learned especially from the verse 8 about “Steadfast love of God” When you have a hard
time, what are you thirsting for? (Have you ever asked yourself “Why me?” or
deeply more than that you maybe ask yourself “Does God love me?”) I have seen
David asking and praying for help from the Lord and he would love to hear God’s
steadfast love more than anything, his soul thirsts for God, he meditates on all
that God have done, he trusts and praises God when the situation seems really
dreadful.
This was very touching to my heart. I have
learned to hold steadfast love of God and I can trust in Him because God love
me so much. I am really thankful for this hard thing again and God is making me
grow up in my relationship with Him. I used to pray and ask God for take away
this Lupus from my life. He can do it if he would love to but this time I felt
wonder in my prayer. I pray to God, I would like God to keep this thing in my
life because it makes me closer to Him, learn to be humble with Him and I will
boast in all my weakness so that Christ’s power may rest on me. This suffering
is very little thing and can’t compare with the “Hope” and glory of God that is coming!
God confirm His steadfast love to me.
God make me so special because of
this suffering.
Without this, I am not special, not
Honey!
Thankful for your always love, support and prayers.
Honey
