What are you thirsting for?
As you know from the last month I sent you my prayer request about my health “Lupus”. I appreciate and thank you so much for your prayers. I would like to share what I have learned from the Lord through this situation with all of you.
First of all I learned about “Faith.” When I knew what was going to happen to me, I needed to get medicine injections for least 6 months to cure my kidney. I felt anxiety and as I thought further about this process, many questions came to my mind. What can I do or can’t I do? What is my personal ministry going to be? Etc. But I forgot to be still and know you are God. How is my faith in you? I have helped my disciples to look up and fix their eyes on Jesus not the situation when they had hard time. And keep asking questions like: Do you believe God will take care of your life? Do you believe God will provide? Do you believe God is our shepherd? Do you believe our lives are in God’s hands? All theses of questions were turning back to me and made me realize and ask myself “Do I believe?” So this is such a sweet thing that God raised my faith in Him. And God gave me his peace, strength and readiness to face it.
Let me hear in the morning of your steadfast love, for in you I trust.
Make me know the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul.
The 2nd sweet thing, I have meditated on Psalm 143 and I have learned especially from the verse 8 about “Steadfast love of God” When you have a hard time, what are you thirsting for? (Have you ever asked yourself “Why me?” or deeply more than that you maybe ask yourself “Does God love me?”) I have seen David asking and praying for help from the Lord and he would love to hear God’s steadfast love more than anything, his soul thirsts for God, he meditates on all that God have done, he trusts and praises God when the situation seems really dreadful.
This was very touching to my heart. I have learned to hold steadfast love of God and I can trust in Him because God love me so much. I am really thankful for this hard thing again and God is making me grow up in my relationship with Him. I used to pray and ask God for take away this Lupus from my life. He can do it if he would love to but this time I felt wonder in my prayer. I pray to God, I would like God to keep this thing in my life because it makes me closer to Him, learn to be humble with Him and I will boast in all my weakness so that Christ’s power may rest on me. This suffering is very little thing and can’t compare with the “Hope” and glory of God that is coming!
God confirm His steadfast love to me.
God make me so special because of this suffering.
Without this, I am not special, not Honey!
Thankful for your always love, support and prayers.